So close...and yet so far.

In 6 weeks (technically 6 weeks, 4 days, and 15 hours) I will be graduating. I can't believe it! This semester has lasted for what seems like an eternity. I'm more than half way done, but I have huge assignments due before I can even think about celebrating. I'm working on my senior thesis, my independent study for Psychology, and 3 other classes. God has given me the strength to keep going, and because of Him I've kept my GPA up. I am so anxious. It is really hard to focus on the task at hand when all I can think about is being DONE. People say I should hop right into grad school, but I really don't have the motivation to do that; I need a break. I'd like to work and help my husband save for a house. We are so ready to start a family, and that is more important to me right now than anything else. My focus now is to work out every day and get in better shape physically. I know that being pregnant takes a huge toll on the body so I want to be prepared. My focus is to try to stop looking at what's ahead and focus on the present--all I can see is me walking across that stage but I have to make sure to take care of these last assignments and ace these last classes. It's a challenge. Thursday I'm picking out my college ring and picking up my cap & gown. I'm also taking my grad portrait. I just still cannot believe I accomplished something without giving up. I set my mind on it, gave it to God, and hit the ground running. Since the fall of 2009 I haven't looked back. I even had to quit facebook for this semester to remain focused. I promised myself and Bobby that I'd steer clear of that distraction until graduation at least. I just wanted to take a second to reflect. When I first went to ACC as a kid straight out of high school, I didn't realize the value of a degree. When I started working full time at job after job after job I truly had a profound appreciation for a college education. Thank God for Bobby. He pointed me back in the right direction and gave me a free education. He makes me want to be a better person, and that was one of the main reasons I was and am so motivated to get this degree. He is my inspiration. My children are my inspiration--the children that don't even exist yet. That's what I always think about when I'm stressed with school; I think about my babies. I can't wait to be a mother. I can't wait to hold my precious little angel in my arms and see what God has blessed us with, what we have created from love. I can't wait to see a perfect mixture of the two of us in that sweet baby. I love that child so much and they are only a thought--I can't wait to feel that love magnified when I see them and feel them kicking around in my tummy. So many wonderful things to look forward to! God is so good to me and my family. I give Him all the praise for every good thing in my life. He is the reason for my success, He is the reason for my blessings, and He is the reason I live. Thank you, Jesus, for giving me more than I deserve. I'll see you all on May 14th at 10am! :)