Baby on Board!

That's right folks; I am preggo! We found out yesterday morning & practically 24 hours later I am STILL in complete and total shock. I keep thinking this is a dream; it's surely not happening to us. Bobby has had this facial expression since yesterday:



It is just so unreal. I've only been off the pill for a couple of months now and it seems like instantly we got pregnant. It's just so amazing. God sure answered my prayers fast! I just have so many things running through my mind; making sure to eat the right things, take the right vitamins, exercise, the delivery, providing for my baby, etc., etc. I've had butterflies in my tummy ever since we found out--I'm so nervous! I feel like Bobby and I are just a couple of kids. I can't imagine being solely responsible for another life. It's just crazy... but we can do ALL things through Christ Who gives us strength. I know we'll be praying A LOT. Yesterday was a complete whirlwind. We didn't want to take a test until I'd been late at least 4 days (which would have been Monday) but come Saturday morning we just couldn't take the suspense; we had to know something. So, we went to Walgreen's, bought a 3 pack, and came home with some take-out for lunch. The whole time we were eating I was thinking about testing... I hardly ate any of my food because the anxiety was just building up. I told Bobby, "I'm just gonna do it now--I can't focus on anything else." So, I did my business and seconds later those two lines were clear as day. All I said was, "Oh my God!" Bobby heard me and said, "What?! A baby?!" He then rushed into the restroom, me still on the toilet!, and I said, "We're having a baby!" as my eyes started to fill up with tears. He hugged me (still on the toilet!) and we both cried. He said, "Get up so I can hug you!" After that we composed ourselves and immediately went to tell our folks in person. I called my sister first and woke her up (it was only 6am in Hawaii), and I asked her, "So, would you rather be called Tia or Auntie?" She couldn't believe it and was so happy. My mama cried when we told her, and then Bobby and I cried again. His mama was in complete shock and immediately called everyone on her Contact List saying, "I'm going to be a grandma!" My dad wasn't home when we told Mom, so Bobby's parents rushed back over to my folks' house to see my dad's reaction. My mom had kept the news to herself (I still can't believe it!) and as soon as we walked in I told my daddy that we had some news. He knew right away when I said that and just smiled and said "Aw!" and hugged me tight. That day was one of the happiest days of my life. God is so, so good. I cannot wait for our first OBGYN appointment in a few weeks. According to my family doctor, I'm 5 1/2 weeks along. My due date is April 16th. So far this little 'tadpole' has been very good to me. I haven't had any morning sickness or symptoms just yet. I've still been walking with Mama every morning, getting at least 3 miles in, and I plan to continue that all throughout my pregnancy. I cannot wait to meet this little one. They are my entire focus now, and my love for them is indescribable. This must be just an ounce of what God feels for me. I feel His love stronger than ever. I'll keep y'all posted and post any news regarding my pregnancy. 'Til then, hasta!

That's Just the Way It Is.

We live in a world full of self-centered & selfish people. 99.9% of things people do are somehow beneficial to themselves. You might be thinking "well DUH" but I just now realized it for myself. See, I held on to the misconception that there were selfless and genuinely charitable people in this world, but really...we are all focused on ourselves. And even if you are charitable, you're doing it to make yourself feel better--you give yourself a pat on the back for being so charitable. Even with your children, you do things to be noticed as a "good parent"; you want that recognition. I guess I'm stating the obvious here, but it pretty much sucks when you grow up and see the world for what it really is. When you're a kid, everyone's good, everyone's trustworthy, your parents are perfect, and that's it. When you become an adult you see that everyone has faults, everyone wants to be liked, everyone has insecurities--everyone's just human. In a way it's a good thing because you realize that the only One you can truly trust, Who will never be selfish, Who will never turn their back on you, Who has NO faults, Who truly does love you unconditionally is Jesus Christ. No matter how my friends are treating me, no matter what disagreement I just had with my parents, no matter what beef I have with my husband, my God is for me. He is ALWAYS in my corner. And He isn't in my corner to benefit some selfish need; He is simply there for ME. That's amazing. What an incredible gift I have! To be able to completely trust Him, just like a child. To see Him as I used to see people before the world was exposed to me. He is perfect. He has no faults. He truly is charitable without needing recognition. He just LOVES ME. So, even if this world and all the people in it turns its back on me, I will always have His love.