What is this world coming to?

I made the mistake of getting sucked into reality TV on MTV tonight. I was watching this show called "True Life" which is basically documenting people's lives and each episode varies depending on a certain subject. For example, they've followed people who have had a lap band or people who have Tourette's syndrome...generally fairly normal topics. This show is usually, at the very least, entertaining but most of the time it's pretty educational and emotional. However, MTV is getting out of hand trying to get higher ratings I'm assuming. Tonight's topic was "I'm Polyamorous". Claudia's translation: "I'm a big slut". They were following two people. One was a 22 year old girl who had a girlfriend, and the girlfriend had a boyfriend, and they all went on dates as a group. One big dysfunctional and disgusting, happy, family. Then the girl decided she wanted a boyfriend as well for herself. They all decided to go to some therapist and meditate as a group. It was incredibly weird and uncomfortable to watch. But of course, I couldn't look away because curiosity got the best of me, unfortunately. Then they introduced the other person they were following. This 20-something year old boy who had two boyfriends and then added ANOTHER boy into the mix. They were all dating each other. 4 boys. At this point, my stomach started hurting. It just amazes and scares me that things like this exist and are considered normal to some people. This is the world I will one day bring my children into?
If anything, this just made me so thankful that I have God to fall back on when I'm faced with things like this. The fact that I can pray and keep my faith in Him and give all of my worries and concerns to Him puts me at ease. He will protect my future babies from all the evil in this world, I truly believe that. I need to start praying for that now, before they even come into this world. God is bigger than anything. I recognize that there is evil out there, but I also recognize that my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, is greater than 'he who is in the world'. That being said, I think I'm getting too old for MTV...TV in general is just heading south. Now I know why my parents watch nothing but Fox News. I may just stick to my Golden Girls reruns.

Blessed.

This morning as I was making breakfast for Bobby and myself, I looked at my sweet husband sitting there and smiled. I am so blessed. Every morning that I wake up, he rolls over and asks, "Are you ok, baby?" He's always making sure I'm happy, even while he's half asleep. He's my protector. I never imagined loving someone this much, and feeling that love in return unconditionally. It's so nice to feel that security and peace. I always tell Bobby that he's my angel, that God sent him to me when I needed him the most. I've dated some doozies in the past, most of which didn't have my best interest at heart. I always devoted all of my time and energy to these guys, expecting nothing in return but their companionship. I hardly got that either. Bobby is selfless all the time with me, and with everyone really. He strives to make me happy in everything he does. He told me the cutest thing today. We were talking about tv shows that he's introduced me to that he really likes. I told him, "It's funny, every time you introduce me to a show that you originally LOVED, I end up getting hooked and love it more than you do, and then you only watch it because I like it." He said, "It's because I love you more than I love myself. You are me now." It sounds silly, and probably doesn't make that much sense now that I'm reading it back to myself, lol, but at the time it made perfect sense. Forget the show, what he said really touched me. "I love you more than myself," isn't that beautiful? Simple, but so sweet. I don't need extravagant gifts, grand gestures, or shopping sprees, I just need my husband to continue loving me and to continue to be the amazing, strong, God fearing man he is. We're coming up on a year of marriage, and it's been wonderful. I am so excited and anxious to see what each new year will hold for us. With Bobby by my side, I have all the confidence in the world. Anything is possible and the sky is the limit. Thank you, Jesus, for blessing me this much and for allowing me to experience what true love really is.
This is a song that means a lot to me and symbolizes what an impact Bobby made on my life when we met. It's about how lost I felt before him, and how he restored my faith in love.

Miss Molly.

I've been reading Molly Ringwald's book called 'Getting the Pretty Back' and I'm currently on Chapter 3. I just started it today and it's not too shabby. I have to admit, I didn't really have the highest expectations for this book being that it's another 'celebrity autobiography', but I do love Molly Ringwald...well, at least Molly Ringwald 20 years ago. Being that I'm obsessed with any and all movies she's ever starred in, I decided to give it a shot. I think it's cute and clever, not brilliant, but she makes some good points. For example, she's inspired me to get rid of my plethora of t-shirts. Honestly, no one wants to see me in t-shirts, they are in no way shape or form flattering. I always use the excuse that I need them for sleepwear or for workout wear but let's face it, Bobby does not want to see his lovely bride in an ugly t-shirt from 5 years ago that has holes in it. C'mon. I can at least wear a cute tank to bed, anything but a t-shirt from a taco shack. As far as workout gear, I don't need 30 t-shirts. A week's worth will do, that's why the washer/dryer were invented. Honestly, if I rid myself of the majority of these unfashionable articles I'll be more likely to take time to carefully pick out a flattering outfit that will not only please the public eye, but will make me feel better about myself. We all know that when we wear make-up, have our hair done, and wear an outfit that shows off our assets we not only look great but FEEL great. Confidence never goes out of style. So, a big thanks to Ms. Ringwald for opening my eyes and making me face my stash of tees.