Thanksgiving 'Break'.

Although, it's not much of a 'break' for me seeing that all I can think about is the amount of work that still needs to get done. I have a huge 12-15 page paper due in one class, and a paper due in each of my 3 other classes. I can't even enjoy this mini-vacation from school because I'm stressing over these assignments. I won't fully relax until the second week of December when I am officially done with this semester. Then I'll just have one more semester to go! It won't be easy, though. I'm taking a lot of classes--and two are very hard. Independent Research, Learning and Cognition, Capstone (senior thesis), Women Writers (an elective), and Drawing 1 (another elective). My electives should be a walk in the park--I'm hoping. The other three won't be. I'm hearing that Capstone won't be too bad, but Independent Research is brutal. I'm not looking forward to it. This is why I am not motivated to go straight to grad school. I need to take a breather. I just hate the way there's always something else; this degree isn't good enough in some peoples' eyes. Let's face it, I won't be getting my PhD most likely. I seriously doubt after having children and teaching full time that I'll even have the energy to pursue that. I have no desire to. I don't need it. I don't want to be a clinical psychologist or psychiatrist. I don't want to open up my own practice. I don't want to be a professor (trust me I see the workload my professors are consumed with and it doesn't look appealing). I'm not interested in being better than everyone. I have a goal which is to graduate with my bachelor's degree first, finish the program with Texas Teachers, and teach for a few years. After that I'll pursue grad school (when my children are in school), and counseling. I think some people think there's a time limit to accomplish their goals, or they're in competition with others. If you're constantly living your life to outdo everyone else, that's not the recipe for a happy life, and you're living according to others' successes. I'm allowing God to guide me, and I'm not trusting in my own strength and wisdom, but His. He is the reason I have gotten this far and I will continue to trust in Him. Nothing can be done without Him.